I don't know how I'm to feel in times when all I should be feeling is happiness for my cousin and his fiance but all I feel is sadness. I'm happy that Blake arrived safely, but seeing my family with Blake and holding him, hurts me that I won't be seeing my baby boy in July. I'm trying so hard not to be selfish and not feeling that it's all about me and my baby, but I just can't help it. I want to tell them to think about me and my baby that I never got to hold. And I wonder if they do think about how Im feeling about the days that are leading up to what would have been Jon's birthday. I want people to remember that I'm hurting. I want them to remember in times of their happiness that I'm hurting deep down. That must sound like the weirdest thing on earth but it's true. I don't want to feel alone, I don't want to go through the pain alone and I don't want people to think that I'm moving on as quickly and they think I may be moving on.
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Hi Hannah! I'm so glad that you are blogging... I think this is a great way to get out some of your emotions and let people know what's going through your head! I hope that this helps, and I will definately check in often to see how things are going!
On a completely unrelated note, I think we have very similar taste in books! I noticed that you are reading The Poisonwood Bible, which is probably my all-time favorite book! I also love The Lovely Bones. Good choices!
Thanks for sending me the link to your blog!
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